Reflections: What This Pandemic Made Me Realize

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Because of the COVID-19 pandemic, we have no choice but to isolate ourselves in our homes to avoid being infected by the virus. The lockdown may continue longer than we want to and people are challenged to keep working despite the pandemic. Others continue to enjoy their time at home with their families and friends. As for me, I realized that this can also be a good opportunity to reflect on ourselves.

My usual routine is to sleep really late and play games until sunrise. I skip breakfast and sometimes lunch and don’t make time for exercise at all. I’ve never stepped outside once since quarantine began and honestly, I felt weak and tired after that usual all play, no sleep routine. Sometimes, I would even stare into space during family dinners, watch them have fun while feeling nothing but an empty shell. I grew sadder each day until I came across a mirror. I stood there for a minute, observing every single detail of myself, from my eye bags, lean arms, sad mouth, until I actually saw and realized what I truly felt inside. I felt very disappointed.

I laid on my bed, stared on the ceiling, and asked myself two simple questions: Is this who I want to become? Is this the kind of person I want others to see? I swiftly answered no and from that moment, I made a personal commitment to become a better version of myself. It’s not easy to fight the urges to play, but I realized that if you want to change, you also need to be willing to sacrifice certain habits. Slow progress is still progress and every day, I would look in the mirror and see physical changes and a happier me.

It’s a cliché, but change is constant. Change doesn’t happen overnight, too. We can all change for the better, but I hope that we do it not only for ourselves but also to become a better person for others.

Published on: June 22, 2020
Written by Melvinsen Jacob Acosta, WYA Asia Pacific Intern