I don’t care if they care
I need to be independent
Prudent people do come
And go away!
I am significant
Without you anyway
These are the words I always use to affirm myself.
I grew up in a loving and supportive family, and luckily, I also have people whom I can call friends. I was never alone! Nevertheless, selfish as it may sound, for many years, the time I spent alone was where my true happiness lay.
I used to asked myself whether this was what I really wanted- to spend a lot of time by myself and shut the door on people. At some point I realized, something was lacking. Then I would talk God and He seemed to reply to me: you are here for others – to love others.
But what if I didn’t want to open my little world? Can we really love others as much as we love ourselves? If this is really what life is about, I could actually get into so much trouble. After all, I am bound to my physical abilities. I cannot do every demand, especially because there are so many of them. My energy is limited, so is my time and strength. I have my own priorities and sometimes those priorities do not include others. I get angry. I get tempted. I say things that hurt, words I regret. I am weak.
I am not perfect
But despite all these, I made a decision. To love not only the books I read, the food I eat, the music I listen to; but also to love others. To forgive as often as possible; sacrifice as much as I could; serve in the best of my abilities; and wholeheartedly open my life to others. It’s true, what they say. Things are easier said than done. After all, in all things, even in love (maybe especially in love), there is pain. But with God who constantly reminds me that there is no limit to His love, then I like to think all He asks of me is that I put no limits on my love as well.
The pain we experience in love is nothing compared to the joy we also get from it. We are only human beings with so many limitations, but what I have learned from World Youth Alliance is the fact that we have every capability to becoming the best we can be. We can offer our talents and skills for love and out of love. And that is the best kind of person we can be.
By Lelit Estipona, regional intern at the WYA Asia Pacific office. To learn more about our internship program, click here.